
Our burly performance classes are back on. The studio class sizes are small and have requirements to be masked & vaxxed. Or folks can choose to Zoom in.
Most exciting of all… we’re also going to have a student showcase! We haven’t performed on stage in a year. Oh goodness we are looking forward to the hustle & bustle of the time leading up to a performance.


Kells & I are in Androsia Wilde’s Island Gyal Flow. This is our first progressive with Androsia. We’re looking forward to flowing and exploring our heritages.
We are also taking Cherry On Top’s Art of Burlesque Starlet Level for intermediate levels. We’ll be rocking, rolling and perfecting how to give face.

2020 is a year of changes. And here is the evidence…
Two VBC
instructors are on preggo leave³. So, the interim instructors² are bringing in new hot exciting classes.

Nals is taking a tap class. Hmm how does tap tie into contemporary burlesque? Excellent question. Guess you guys will have to come out to watch how Cleo Victory
whips us into shape.
Kells is taking chair level 2. Yes you heard that right. Level bloody 2 with Chastity Twist
! Kells is learning how to contort in new slithers. The performance promises to be sizzling.

We are both taking a second class which is with newbie Ginger Avenueš
. We’ll be bumping and grinding down underš, to classic burlesque moves.


So come check us out at The Rio Theatreon Thursday, March 12, 2020.
Footnotes: šGinger is a new instructor but has been performing for years. She’s an Aussie! ²The second instructor is Portia de Favro
. N&K were itching to try one of her classes but she’s only doing intermediate and advanced. After a year of burlesquing, we feel that we’re past beginner stage but not quite intermediate.ÂłCongratulations to Cherry on Top and Ariel Helvetica on bringing 2 new tinies to the GVA!
Student Showcase (adult version of a recital). It’ll be Thursday December 12, 2019 at 9 pm at the Rio Theatre
.
Unfortunately Kells and I couldn’t join the same class this quarter (boo!). Her themes are Mad Scientist (Cleo Victory’s contemporary) and The Circus (Chastity Twist’s chair). They sound like so much fun!

My 2 classes are more classic burlesque styles. My themes are Women*’s Personas: Public & Private Faces (Cherry On Top’s Ingenue level) and Vegas Showgirls (Ariel Helvetica). My classes are a lot of fun, too. We’ve mistreating pink feather boas* and red-and-silver heels.

There are a variety of babes in our classes: some new-to-the-scene and some familiar faces. Very exciting mix!
The show is going to phenomenal folks! So please come to see us and cheer us on. We promise lots of good energy, fun vibes and good times.
Footnotes:
*mistreatment as in humping and other fun things. No feather boas were harmed… Yet.
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Dancing puts me in a vulnerable position.

So yah, I’m feeling vulnerable but determined to do it. But this experience got me thinking about my thoughts vs others. What I see is me as an elephant in the room, dancing with cute ballerinas. BUT what others see is me doing well. I got good feedback from my friends. But these crappy feelings of me looking stupid flood other parts of my life too.
For example, at my gym, for the longest time, I always thought I could see my tummy reflecting off the heater that is located on the roof right above me. It literally took me over a year to realize it wasn’t my belly at all, but the big ball I was using making the reflection!


Why? Why do I assume, this big ball is my stomach reflecting? Why do I go to a negative place? Why didn’t see a ball? Why didn’t I see me accomplishing this one work station that I’ve struggled with for so long?
I’m so annoyed with myself when I realized I’ve been doing this. Nals and I have talked about this (a lot). We always remind each other that we are pointing out negative things and will say “that’s not what I see”. As much as I have focused on trying to be body positive, and not negative on myself, I still find I have moments (like mentioned above) where I still beat myself up. I still see negative things.
But here’s what I can do:
1. Listen to the positive feedback
2. Recognize when Im being negative
3. Continue to challenge myself
4. Remember to love myself
5. Celebrate my accomplishments

I know I’m not the only one that goes through this. Please share the ways you challenge your negative self talk and ways you love yourself!!

When I first started burlesque, I was shy about telling people.
I thought I would be judged for the type of dance, or that I would dare to do it because I don’t have a dancer’s body. And culturally speaking, I was taught to be modest. Prancing around in your undergarments is not modest. I’m also too old to take on something like burlesque! And lastly, there are only a handful of visible minorities in burlesque. I definitely felt out-of-place. This translated into me being shy about talking about it.
Holy batman! All these internal battles!
Rectifying internal battles
Type of dance: I try to educate people on the burly history. It’s not just about shaking your tail feathers. This is another way to express how you’re processing society’s zeitgeist. Don’t believe me? Then look at all the sub-genres: nerdlesque, contemporary, chair, etc.
Dancer’s body: Burlesque initially came out because poor folks poked fun at the richie-rich operas/shows. With burlesque, essentially, anything goes. Different bodies, shapes, colours, abilities… it is about you telling your story. How are you interacting with the audience?
Too old: Yes, I’m older than my instructors and classmates. But, the only person who has made me feel ‘too old’ is me. Last showcase, there was a 60+-year-old woman who did a saucy chair solo. She was fantastic!
Modesty: This term means to act demure, and can include dressing in a non-sexually aggressive manner. Is it a vehicle of oppression? Perhaps it is to be deliciously explored in future burlesque?
When you are on stage, you are taking on a persona that’s bigger-than.
Maybe you’re klutzy? Super comedic? Have the ability to sensually slither along the stage? Have long legs? Expressive face? Love performing in drag?
Now…
… I talk about being in burlesque all the time. I’m excited that I can be part of it! I’ve got access with Vancouver Burlesque Company. (Screaming Chicken, K&I are coming for you, soon!) It’s affordable both financially and timewise.
The benefits
I’m engaging in self-care. I’m getting fitter and honing in on different fitness goals. I get to dress up, make costumes, have fun, learn to move, meet new people, dance with Kells, listen to music, feel inspired, feel empowered, feel confident, have a creative outlet and be around positivity.
I’ve learned that I’m not as klutzy as I thought I was. I’ve got a bit of rhythm. I’ve learned that I can jellybean, plank off of a chair, go from a standing position to the floor then do an inchworm push up in heels… all in rhythm to music!

Stage Presence
Performing on stage isn’t for everyone. With VBC, you can actually just take the class without doing the final show. And, last Fall when I took my first class, I didn’t plan on performing. But by the end, I thought: why the frig not?
Being on stage is simply exhilarating. Hearing the audience cheer and whistle. Feeling those positive vibes. Performers excited and buzzing with adrenaline. It is a fabulous feeling!
So, if you are remotely interested in this genre, K&I encourage you to take a class with VBC (or SC). Or in the very least, come and check us out. Tickets available online here.
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So the doctors ordered surgery. Finally, I was getting somewhere!
The next hurdle. I was put on the list for surgery, but was told that it could be years before I get it.

I cried.
I was not going to make it.
I wasnât thinking about hurting myself, but I understood why those in chronic pain end their lives.

Thankfully, my lawyer was also there to help me. She got my surgery done in a private clinic a few weeks later. I walked out of surgery standing tall. (also vomiting, but I was able to stand up straight).

The other thing I learned was that I have put a few other parts of my health on the back burner because I just didn’t have energy to to keep advocating for myself. I wasn’t happy about thisâŚalso annoyed, that I would have to speak up again to have my health taken seriously.
As women*, we are often not taken seriously when we tell the doctor that something is wrong.
We are often viewed as overreacting or unable to manage the slightest bit of pain.
We often have to put our health on the back burner because we need to care for others.
This has got to stop!
And it will stop with us advocating for our own health.

Yes, this is a scary thought. BUT we deserve it. AND we need to support each other. We donât need to do it alone. Please share with your sisters*. We donât need to be embarrassed. We need the support and their motivation to get through.
My back surgery and injury was a motivator for me to get my health in order. As I have shared before, I need to keep active in order to keep my back health in check. BUT this also motivated me to get the other health issues in my self checked out. I will post on those later.
There are 13 stations that last 2 minutes each.
You start off with a 2 minute jump rope warm up. Next stations are something like:
There are 3 levels, starting at 1.
So you do a period of time (ie: 30 seconds) of regular-paced and regular-powered activity
then when the buzzer bings once, you either power up or go fast (ie: 15 seconds). Â Repeat
Double bing means switch stations.
Loud pumped-up music, very small area (great for focus), personal trainer attention with quick corrections/ encouragements/verbal pushes.
I think I have auditory processing disorder so it was a bit of a challenge to keep all the instructions, directions, movements clear with the music and timer. I think I did okay3, and will obviously improve with more exposure.
I was totes prepared to join Miss Kells in her Kick the Flip out of Cancer in October. This would’ve entailed getting to the HIT daily. Â I work out weekday mornings at 630. Â So unfortunately, their hours didnât work for me. From experience I know I will not go regularly at another time.
There are no drop-ins4. There are monthly pay options. Â The fee decreases depending on if it’s month-to-month, for 12 or 24 months.
The trainers are fabulous – full of pep and sugar. But don’t let their smiles fool you. Â They’ll push you, bootcamp style.
Foots
1 Nals dislikes medicine balls. Maybe if it came with a spoonful of sugar…
2 Yes, this is indeed the technical term, as per Nals.
3 And by âokayâ, I mean I didn’t quit and got a workout, even if I did most of the moves wrong.
4 Except Sunday was one of the fundraising days so it was drop in and a couple dudes came to participate.
When I was heavier, I felt bombarded with images of thin, smooth-skinned, tall ladies as âbeautifulâ. If it was North American media, then tanned vixens. And if Bollywood media, then fair-skinned maidens. No one looked like me: pear-shaped, bespectacled, with frizzy unkempt waves & darker skinned⌠unless it was an actor who played an evil Bollywood mom. Or, was the star of a self-named comedy show (see posts on Tips 1-4, 5-8, 9-10). And I wasn’t any of those adjectives either!
And these thin women were portrayed as The Ultimate Show Ponies, dripping with confidence, promise, fulfilling lifestyles, happiness and sex appeal. Today, I say âBravo!â to advertising and entertainment sectors for the deep ingrainment. They worked hard to get that image across.  At the time, it didn’t occur to me that I didn’t know anyone else that looked like that, either. Move over Manson² and Heaven’s Gate, Media is the Ultimate brainwasher.
Keep in mind, my teen years were spent poring over glossy magazines with shiny images, talking on the phone with friends, and watching TV. We didnât have internet or cell phones. My escape was TV and staying up late reading booksš. So growing up with rigid ideas of what the perfect 2-D body looks like makes a regular 3-D girl feel less-than.
In all honesty I thought once I lost weightÂł, I would be happier. Things would magically fall into place. Of course this is real-life, not a fairy tale.
Happiness is something you attain. It is not bestowed upon you.
I had to really think about what would make me happy. I love reading, photography, the theatre
and writing. I love all kinds of dance. I am happy when beautiful things surround me: people, clothes, art, wine, food. And I am happy after I have challenged myself.
I try to do things to push my personal boundaries like co-writing this blog. (Yes, I love writing but itâs not easy to put yourself out there.) Iâve taken loads of pictures, in public. Then put up these up for you all to see.
And last week, I started a burlesque class with Kells. Yes, burlesque. I love how bawdy, welcoming, tongue-in-cheek, flirty, raucous it is. And we had no idea about its fabulously clandestine history.Â
This is an intro class, with a lovely range of ladies across sizes, ages, shapes and abilities. About one third took the class to push themselves, have fun and become more comfortable in their own skin. Â Some of the same reasons as N&K!
you gotta wake the F up. Self-evaluate and make a plan of change.
Donât just chug along with life. Grab it by the horns and point it in the right direction!
Footnotes
1 Thanks Judy Blume, Stephen King, Danielle Steele, Isaac Asimov for keeping me up too late
2 Charles, not Marilyn
3 According to a female family member, all I needed to do in my teen years, was lose weight, get rid of unsightly zits and get toss the glasses. (She was unsure of this last thing, as presumably, there were attractive librarians with glasses.) This aunt was a solid support to me. She never lied. But, she encouraged my strengths and didnât let me forget them. And I adored her. (She was the next best thing to sliced bread!) So when she gave me this unsolicited bit of advice, which came out of the blue, I was heartbroken.
I have never done this before, so I am a little nervous. First of all, Iâm not one to ask people for money. So please donât feel you need to donate to me (but I wonât say no if you want to donate). However, I am asking you all to join in the conversation around womenâs health AND to support me while I kick the stink out of cancer this month.

According to the Canadian Cancer Society lung, breast, colorectal and prostate cancer are the most common types of cancer (not including skin cancer). Also, cancer is the #1 cause of death in Canada. We also know that the earlier the detection the better the outcome. We also know that there is no known cure, and we need to find it! No one should have to lose their life to cancer. No one.
Iâm assuming here, but Iâm pretty sure that we have all been impacted by Cancer. I have lost 2 important people in my life to Cancer and I have also have a survivor in my life. This month I want to honor my friend Amber, who even while she fought her hardest and even in her sickest moments, chose to be happy and live for every moment. I also want to honor my bests Dad, Rick. He was the cool dad that made those ridiculous jokes and always made us laugh. I will never forget these two.
Let me share this one last thing. A couple of months before Amber passed away, I went to see her in the hospital. She was so thin and on oxygen. It was hard to see her so frail. But she smiled the whole time. She laughed and joked and wanted to know the latest news with everyone we knew in our lives. I asked her what can I do to help her. She told me she was happy. She said that after she got the news she had a choice, to fear the future and be sad about her extremely aggressive cancer or she would wake up every morning and say âtoday I choose to be happyâ. That really hit me. My gosh, itâs hard to be wake up happy without knowing you are dying from cancer. And let me tell you, Ams lived her word. She was happy. She was happy to see her friends, happy to have another day with her family. She was happy. I try hard to live by this. And when I hear our song, Sugar by Maroon 5, I get a reminder to be happy. Itâs a choice.
So here I am, choosing to do my part for fighting for cancer and choosing to be happy. Please join me. Help me. Encourage me. Follow my fundraising and if you can please donate:Â https://secure.e2rm.com/registrant/FundraisingPage.aspx?registrationID=4292199&langPref=en-CAÂ I hope to post some pictures there soon!
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Not all runs are created alike. Which is why I wanted to do a review so that newbie runners have the info to choose wisely. Â There’s not only a financial cost, but also the time and energy.
We were both mentally prepared and motivated. Â
Kells just needed to re-condition. Â Her final time was about 30 minutes for 5km outside. Â
I needed to start from the bottom middle up. I did some research and decided to do a modified Couch to 5km.  My end time was about 40 minutes for 5km on the treadmill. Running outside was way harder.  I couldn’t run a straight 5km, without walking breaks.
Always check in with a licensed healthcare professional such as a physician, nurse-practitioner or personal trainer prior to starting a new health regime. Â This helps you to be physically safe and manage your expectationsÂł.
had such a fabulous energy. Â It is the first run of the year in Vancouver. Lots of music, people, hoopla. Â It was fabulous and I was pumped but nervous AF! Â
Location: Stanley ParkÂ
Raceway: We ran along the seawall so pathway was flat, with minimal incline and wide enough to pass the slower-paced folks.
Length: 5 km walk or run. Â Different start times for different levels.
Nâs time 38 mins â Kâs time 28 mins
Both Kells and I have had loved ones suffer from with cancer. Â So this is a topic that is near-and-dear to us.
Location: various across B.C. We chose Tri-cities, which was at Rocky PointÂ
Raceway: windy, partial paved sidewalk/trail and a lot of forest-y trails with twigs and such things to get underfoot.
Other info: wayyy smaller gathering that started 45 minutes late, not cordoned off so other runners and birdersš blocked the precious real estate. Â
Length: 5 km (which was more like 5.5 km) or 1 km walk or Dash for kidlets
Nâs time â 45 mins â Kâs time â 30 mins
Womens health is also an important topic for us. So this was a no-brainer. Â
Location: Wesbrook Village in UBC, N’s alma mater
Raceway: trails in Pacific Spirit Park.  Partial paved and mostly groomed trails with some twiggy undertows.  Minimal incline, paths are narrow at some points.
Length: 5 km walk or run (or 10 km run or 1 km walk), different trails and staggered start times
Nâs time: <38 mins âKâs time: <28 mins
After the first run, this gal was hooked. Â The freaking energy and positivity was addicting and motivating AF. Â We will defo run this next year. Â
If I had started with Daff Dash, I wouldn’t have gotten hooked. No siree bob. Energy was way different, which was partially due to the drizzle and smaller crowd. Didn’t seem as organized. Â Next year both K&I agreed to do the Vancouver one. Â (2018 was the last year for Tri-Cities location anyways.)
We ended with a BANG! Shoppers was defo a larger crowd with music and lots of energy. Â Our one critique is that the Walkers should have started last, after all of the runners. Â Some of the Walkers sauntered in their possies, shooting the shit. Â They were like a human bunting, 3 and 4 across the the path. They bristled at how the runners rudely pushed past them2. Â Imagine runners wanting to run in a race! Preposterous!
Our last run was supposed to be the Vancouver Pride Run in July  But I wanted to support my family member in her wife’s Celebration of Life, which was the same weekend.  So K&I didn’t go.Â
I was super pleased to see all shapes and sizes, and skill levels. Â So if you’re remotely interested, go for it! It is sooo worth it.
Footers:
1 Â Birders= a gaggle of birdwatchers that was clogging up the trail like an oxidized comedo.
2 The bunts were told to keep 1 or 2 across, and keep path open for runners. Hmmm these Walkers didn’t have a bunt to stand on.
3 I see him a few times a year for the chronic health condition so I just tacked this question on to my visit. Â I had also checked in with Koach. Â
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