A while back I talked about starting on my journey of self-discovery^.
Click here to read that post.
So, let’s cut to 15 years later. . .
Yes, it’s a sad state of affairs but c’est vrai. There’s less of me to hug… (not that I’m much of a hugger anyways)
. . . I’ve lost: about 90 pounds, a few clothing sizes, some unhealthy habits and coping, some excessive anxiety and some of my self-critical automaton.
. . . I’ve gained:
- strength. Initially, I struggled to exercise with 2-pound weights. And now I’ve got me some pipes, yo!* If it wasn’t for tendonitis, I’d be doing push ups left right and centre. Yeah and I’d be an old pro at those burpees. (You know that unnatural unnecessary abnormal ‘conditioning’ exercise.)
- endurance. I came across this interesting BBC article Is Physical Endurance All In The Mind? Yes I think a large part of it lives in your brain – different parts: making new synaptic connections, challenging yourself, improving your skills.
For example, I could barely do 5 minutes on the elliptical. And now, I can do 60 minutes with my eyes closed**. One of my initial goals was to run 2 straight minutes. And now? Different story. At last count I could run at 4.5mph for 30 straight minutes. That’s on a treadmill. (Outside running is a different story grr… I’m still working on it.)
I’m training for my first 5k city fun run! Kells -and Mr. Kells- will be there of course. (They’ve done a few 5k runs, so it’s old hat to those 2 cute fit bits.) In our cheering section will be Mr. Nals, mumsey, mumsey-in-law and Lil Kiwi!~
- gumption. I strive to push my comfort levels a little. On the last few trips I’ve been on, I’ve done something different. I’ve zip lined, spelunked, explored volcanos and hiked all over the world. For a lot of peeps, this is the norm. Until now, it was challenging for me.
I’ve also embraced the camera and… have taken loads of photos (on our Instagram). Previously, taking photos was extremely stressful and a negative experience. Now: it’s way funner^^ to let go and take quirky pictures. For our S. F. U. shots 1 2 3, we traipsed around with our photog gear, and vogued L, R & C. (Good exposure therapy for me: People saw us, were mildly curious and watched for a bit, and then went on about their day.)
In order to take nice pictures, you have to put yourself out there both physically and emotionally. (Think of those photos you begrudgingly take at family gatherings. Your eyes end up closed or your face is all contorted. Next time – embrace the photoshoot. I’ll bet yours will be the best-looking face in the group.~~)
- a better outlook on life. When you stop making excuses, see all the awesomeness out there and just do… It’s amazing how wonderful life is. No, life isn’t perfect. The world isn’t perfect. But at least you’re trying to improve yourself.
- greater self-awareness.
- the skills to be more trusting and open. Because of a whole bunch of reasons, I tend(ed) to be private. I’m trying to be more social and… open about me***. And you know, it’s not too bad. (Not sure the people around me would agree lol.)
So what’s my secret?
… Just add a pinch of cayenne!
Ha I wish cuz I love me my spicy food.
In all honesty, there is no secret. But I have figured out a few helpful things along the way that I’ll share with you over the next few weeks. Kells will also weigh in with her thoughts.
Stay tuned, N&Kers!
The end bits and bobs:
^ yes this is cheezy AF. But it’s true. Weight loss, like many lifechanging behaviours, include gaining self awareness, motivation and then enacting right plan.
* I still have a bit of chicken wing but I’m working on it.
** (though not literally cuz I’d lose my balance).
^^ yep that’s a word.
~ When I texted the invitation to mumsey, she said, “Oh this is so exciting!” LOL isn’t she too cute for words?
~~ and if not, then there’s always next time, right.
What do you guys think?
RBF vs. Smiling?
Leave us your thoughts and comments on your experiences with weight loss, self awareness, motivation and changing lifelong bad habits.